I cannot give up my poonool and Krishna and continue to live

I am seeing so many posts about conversion new types of worship and so on.

I just asked myself..

"If you are offered all wealth comforts and promises of heaven far beyond what you do have, will you just cut off your poonool give up your Krishna and convert?.

After all Is it not true that your poonool or Krishna give more difficulties than comforts?"

Yes it looks to be true that poonool and Krishna give me difficulties than comforts.

But I cannot give up my poonool and Krishna and continue to live.

I will prefer to die with the name of Krishna in my my lips and my poonool will burn to ashes only with me.

My religion and faith are so simple.

My religion is just a part of me.

I cannot change it

We can talk of things tending toward zero but we are helpless when something becomes zero

Molecular biology.. genetic engineering.. the progress in these fields may be path breaking.. but everything pauses on the point when the life and the chemical content of the biological mass are keeping good company to one another.

Once the threshold is crossed and we are faced with the fact that what is called life. and signs thereof have left the biological mass now called carcass or dead body, we stand dumb folded..

Our basic belief.. of Hinduism and Vedas was that there is a controlling force in rtm ऋतम् and सत्यं

we see the Harihara swaroopam

in rtgm satyam param brahma purusham krishnapingalam oordhwaretham viroopaaksham vishvaroopaya vai Namah.

ऋतं सत्यं परंब्रह्म पुरुषं कृष्णपिङ्गलं ऊर्ध्वरेतम् विरूपाक्षं विश्वरूपाय वै नमः .

( we chant this prayer at least thrice a day.. the lord Hari and Hara are one and they are the embodiment of rthm and satyam.. (translation of the other parts of the slokam are not relevant here)..

The basic principle is that the function of the whole universe is controlled by Him applying His will which is the exalted truth..

rthm is truth,( the structure or rule of truth.). but many things more than mere truth as we who have learned science in modern terms and the logic thereon can interpret or perceive..

The theory of Karma has also its genesis here.. right things beget right and wrong ones the opposite.

So the living being is also expected to obey the Divine truth and follow it.. but we are given a little freedom and we tend to move away from the exalted order a little and we get tarnished by Karma..

Of course, the precept of the primal Truthfulness and objectiveness of the Maker has to be accepted without proof.. either because there is no proof or because our minds have not yet grown enough to grapple with that proof..

And most of the Vedic principles have emanated from this baisc tenet..

True, the lesser humans have added a lot of muck to the basic foundation.. but then that happens even in science.

. Are we anywhere near absolute truth in Science? What about the strange behaviours of matter energy mix as conceived by Max Planck and Einstein.. at the uncertainty principle level.?.

most of the research findings are ultimately estimations..

the value of something very small as a tiny variable which is relatable to it tends to become zero.. even in differentiation in maths.. We can talk of things tending toward zero but we are helpless when something becomes zero..

Some actions and gestures are very difficult to understand primarily..

Some actions and gestures are very difficult to understand primarily..

But we would come accustomed to them and would even realize the meaning and spirit behind such acts after long periods..

Most of the time we would understand that such actions had a lot of right in it..

Even as a boy and upto the time he treacherously left for heaven when I was just thirty..

I used to watch my father and his methods of worship.

Of course he was very hawkish in performing the Sandhyavandhanam, and chanting some mantrams which he had acquired from his father and certain most revered Nambuthiri gurus, especially the Arithoittathil Swamigal and Madangarli swamigal  and he gave most of the mantram to me too.. so if I start my pooja and rituals in the morning I would have to be engaged at least for one year..

But more than that he would start praying calling the names of every deity with whom he had grown or visited..

Lord Shiva of Thrikkandiyur near Tirur.. and the Vettakkaran there would be the first in his list as he grew as a child there..

This would be followed by Visvanathaswamy and Visalakshy of Koduvayur, Sreeraama of Thrikkandiyur and the list would contain a hundred addresses of Gods,

Vishnu, Shiva, Ayyappa, Ganapathi, Devi..And our Swamy.. the Pazhani Andavar.the murugan

God is same everywhere..

God has no religions even..

I was wondering why such a simple and straightforward believer was calling so many gods every morning and evening..

I could not find any rational answer to this while he was alive, and I have even tried to make fun of him for reading aloud the address list..

But in retrospect, I understand the spirit...

The man was living his whole life over and over again by mentioning the Pratishtas in various temples with which he had occasion to be in touch..

For his simple frugal and straightforward life, the focal point was always God and the deities in the temple

A son understands his father only when the son is sufficiently old and most probably the father is just a memory.

For the last few years, I would add to a written list kept in a book the names of all the deities I have got in touch in my life including the temples of Jesus, Allah or for that matter any God or God in any shape, and just would read the list at least once in the day..

Maybe it is raw idolatry, obscurantism.. but there is some peace in that process.