Is it mere halllucinaton? I really do not know..

Is it mere halllucinaton? I really do not know..

But I have found that my father just visits us in my dreams, whenever I have some problems which are not capable of solutions..

He is not with us in physical body for twenty eight years now,,

Not that he was a very erudite or learned person capable of giving great advice..

He was just a tenth standard failed man..

His only asset is His infinite faith in Palani Andavar

Even as a boy, I have never felt that I could have not much of use from his advises..

He was so simple and harmless to a fault..

All that he would say is that we should not harm others. He was not rich, and

he did not leave behind anything for me except this thing called me.

But His presence just moving around and telling some simple and rather naive things, although in dreams, means lots and lots to me..

The sense of insecurity in me simply vanishes..

Often I just feel that He is leaving the home without telling where he goes and comes back when he pleases..

Last night, I remember telling, " appa, you dont go away telling me where you are going and when you will come back.."

But when I woke up He is gone..

But I know He will come back to me..

I have done nothing for him physically could not give any comforts for him

He passed away much before we stabilized as a family.. at least in physical comforts..

But I do not know, he must be guiding me ..

After all that is I am and what I do even now is his and his alone..

Even if it is a hallucination, it is more sweet than this life..