I just want to have my innocent days back before I leave this world

I have found out one truth, maybe to my own disappointment

When sincerity and humility were the predominating qualities present in me, I toiled a lot, read a lot, and gained some real knowledge..

But then showmanship,exhibitionism and arrogance, the thought that I am far better than others, took control of me and my attitude changed..

I became an inflated balloon (buffoon)

.. And that was the end of my quest for knowledge ..

Now I just thrive on what I gathered during my sweet era of innocence..

However, nowadays I try to assert without any justification that I am better than others..

I know very well that my impression is not correct.. Some sensible spot in my mind says I do not add up to anything worthy..

Nevertheless the ego obliterates that bright spot..

After all, ninety percent of my life has been lived already..

Twenty percent in blissful simplicity and seventy percent in foolish arrogance..

I just want to have my innocent days back before I leave this world.

Only God can help..

It is easy to fight with others, but it is impossible to fight with oneself and win too..