true to that faith Pazhani Andavar sailed his family to safe shores

Mother is great..

I do agree.

I can always agree though I am sixty two and my mother is eighty six.

(I wrote this ten years ago, and my Amma too has now joined my appa in heaven)

However, I remember always that my father was everything to me.. and I lost a huge portion of me when I lost him twenty nine years ago.

He was no scholar or a learned man.

Just a matric failed

But his faith in God was immense.

And true to that faith Pazhani Andavar sailed his family to safe shores.

His faith in me was only just  second to that in god.

He was the only one who loved me unconditionally and was the only one who was really proud of me.

He just lived enough to see me in a decent job but I have not ever risen to the level of his expectations

Silently and without complaints he left on the dviteeya of shukla paksham of mesham in 1987 and I performed his 29th annual sraddham today.

I am a helpless orphan the moment you left appa..

but I just plod on on the firm belief that you are just directing me from somewhere

I'm sure I will come to you finally wherever you are.

I have no one else to cry my heart out.